i feel like it is never good enough....argh.

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comment of the night:
"you guys are going to make great dads."
-jess in response to smitty and i doing a drama for Chapel Life where we played fathers...


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yesterday, starting at the 2:45 bedtime, through the 8-5 work day (wrought with stress and anxiety and pressure), including the 5:30-8 Chapel Life marathon and stress scene, to the 8:30-12:30 hard work and sweat to repair the Chapel Life damage and set up for a wedding, to my final return to my home and my bed....almost 24 hours later....this has been the longest day of my life


i feel emaciated, vapid, drained....and the week isnt over yet. tomorrow may very well be worse.


you are my strength when i am weak...

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more music lyrics compliments of my new playlists, a Jeep, a rainy day, many pensive hours, and emotional chaos.

So if you want to be with me
With these things there's no telling
we'll just have to wait and see
But I'd rather be working for a pay check
Than waiting to win the lottery
Besides, maybe this time it's different
I mean, I really think you like me

-Bright Eyes

Oh, you're a hard one,
But I know that you've got your reasons...
Now it seems to me, some fine things,
Have been laid upon your table.
But you only want the things that you can't get...
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, and open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you,
You better let somebody love you,
Before it's too late

-Eagles (covered by Johnny Cash)

Do You Realize - that everyone you know
Someday will die -

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face

-The Flaming Lips


Never know how long i have waited
anticipated your smile to be pressed against mine

-Jason Mraz

The suckers lose themselves
In the games they learn to play
Children love to sing but
Then their voices slowly fade away
People always take a step away
From what is true
You make me want you
An open invitation to the dance

-Third Eye Blind



a lot to think about and process...

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the sun is bright
the sun is warm
my hair is blonde
and flows freely
wind-tossed and blown
there is nothing quite like a tan, blonde boy smiling in the sun
regardless how little the exterior resembles a boy


it has been good to get away from williamsburg and go have some fun with family and friends. because now it is time to buckle down and face the real world. because i have a job! yes. a job. a REAL job. full-time. crazy, i know.

after the initial period of allowing this change to register, i actually am very excited to start this job. there is something about actually having the opportunity to work and earn some money that i can save and use towards things i need. or just keep saved to provide security.

it is like Conor Oberst says: "But I'd rather be working for a pay check
Than waiting to win the lottery"

which i think applies to actual work and relationships....since they can be a form of work too....


anyways.....work starts tomorrow.

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