why do i crave the things worst for me when i am upset or depressed?

Chanello's pizza
Taco Bell Chili-cheese Burittos
Bailey's Ice Cream
McDonald's Double Cheeseburgers (plain)
Wendy's Triple with Cheese, Lettuce and Mayo
All-you-can-eat Mongolian
Wawa Spicy Sausage


and that's just the food...


at least it isn't crystal meth or something like that....to look on the bright side.


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Well I've been fanning flames from these old coals.
Feeding them with tinder, and hoping they will grow.
Well I've been savoring what I can't hold.
A blind belief in goodness
That doesn't seem to show.

And everyone watched me waste myself,
and everyone cheered at last.
And all of them found it comforting.
It's better it's me, than them.

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if you are the shores, i am the waves begging for big moons
i'm mailing letters to addresses in a ghost town

my worst fears are letting out
why put a new address on the same old loneliness
when breathing just passes the time
until we all just get old and die

your secret's out
i know this hurts
it was meant to



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I found it strange this morning that I was actually looking forward to my workout. Granted this was after rolling out of bed grumpily and not wanting to do anything but go back to bed. It wasn't until I was putting my gym bag in the locker that I realized I was excited. Maybe it was my body anticipating the adrenaline and endorphins. Maybe it was something else. Who knows. But it is a new thing for me. Being excited about anything early in the morning has rarely happened for me. Probably not since the days of waking up to cancelled school.

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frustrating in an oddly sufferable way


yup. that encapsulates it.

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