words all too familiar, forever repeated.
more voices attempt to affirm
yet they only add doubt
the truth has since left that statement
the hope and happiness and joy,
future reward escapes once again
with repetition only comes pain
i thought i had finally answered
it had been given
the gift anticipated and predicted prayerfully
yet not. and if not then when? where? how?
-insert Sunday school answer here-
in all honesty, doubt and loneliness are the products
of an encouraging word intended to love and care
the thought is appreciated
thanks for caring
if only you knew how many times i have heard that
and the difference between what it used to mean
and what it means now
not your fault
i just hope your right
cause its not up to me
with every day more lonesome doubt


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