welcome back
i will let you in
but you will not take control
you dont own me
and no i dont owe you anything
i've come too far
i've learned too much
i will not go back

but i will not deny what i know
and what i feel
so with caution
with excitement
bathed in prayer
i will give it another try
i will allow the possibility of "us" again

my focus is not you
my focus is more on me
not in a selfish way, but in order to grow
to become who i am meant to be
to live in His amazing love and grace
to be fulfilled by Him
not desiring anything more
and thus allowing for the blessing that you are
above and beyond all that he has done for me

walk with me
not in front trying to lead me or direct me
not above me looking down upon me, making me feel inadequate
not behind me, holding onto my shirt and holding me back
not controlling or manipulating or directing
just supporting and allowing me to live
trusting me to obey
trusting that even though i dont know what i'm doing
all that i do will be from Him
even if it doesnt make sense
like last year
it doesnt make sense
it didnt seem right
but it needed to happen
it is all in His plan
and i will submit to his wisdom
and guidance

you need to let me do that
i'm not following you
i'm not trying to impress you
i am me
i am what God wants me to be
and i will become that man in His time
i will be who i am
if that isnt good enough, then that is your problem
and i wont change that to appease you
but if it is, then you are welcome...

let's try this again
different but the same
better and wiser...


any and all comments or responses are welcome at dabele@wm.edu