song lyrics that seem appropriate for the moment:

There was a party last night, last night
Cigarettes and empty bottles, empty bottles
Better open up this window, this window
Need some air to clear my head, clear my head

Alone in these strange beds
I think that I've travelled enough
Poetry and aeroplanes
I am tired of waiting for love

Tend to fall asleep in the fast lane, in the fast lane
Sometimes sinking low in the high life, in the high life
No more happy songs of heartbreak, oh' heartbreak
Or playing white knight misunderstood, misunderstood

Alone in these strange streets
I think that I've walked them enough
Poetry and Aeroplanes
I am tired of waiting for love

Another night I lie awake
In woken dreams of faith and fate
Hope my love don't come too late

She stole, my grandmother's watch, a treasure to touch
To keep time to herself
Her mind, was a very big house, we got lost there for hours
Until August fell.

You say you're alright, but Josie it's time
You gotta get your feet on the ground
But she says: "No, don't you see we have wings?
It's the funniest thing, it's just that no one knows."


Can you say goodbye, without ever leaving?
That's some sad soul to keep
Amanda awakes in a moment believing
She's better off staying asleep
So she drives by the station
Imaginin' somewhere
Sings a slow slow song

Now she's waiting at the stoplights
With no where to go
But in our town there's just one stoplight
Oh I wish she would know
There's a world outside her window
Anywhere the wind blows

She sleeps like a girl, but wakes like a woman

I wish you would've grabbed the gun
And shot me 'cause I died
And I'm nothing now without you
yeah, I'm less than nothing now

I'm the one between the bars and lost forever now
'Cause it's over now

It's harder now that it's over
Now that the cuffs are off
And you're free; You're free with a history


Never was good with decisions that's what I've been told
I've been holdin on to this ticket cause one day I'll pay this toll

Freedom came my way that night
just like a jet plane In and out of sight
I was hauling ass at a million miles an hour
wondering how hard I'd hit

I'm taking a chance on the wind
I'm packing all my bags
Taking a mistake I gotta make
then I'm glory bound


i never really had a problem
because of leaving
but everything reminds me of her
this evening
so if i seem a little out of it, sorry


Only I can make these changes, nobody else
Say goodbye to those sleepless nights
Those corridors with no end in sight
A driven man with these words I write
I'm making peace with my soul tonight


In a room draped in blue
i am thinkin of you
i am tired
and i cant sleep
and for you i will weep
in a flash you are gone
yet around me life is calm
i cannot understand
is this part of the plan


Bright lights, big city
Was quite extraordinary.
The drive was pretty.
I was in perfect company.
The love of a lifetime,
Since we were elementary friends;
The one with the bright eyes..


(mostly for the connection to the scene in Wicker Park. I still don't know why that is so powerful to me)
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And NURSE me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Calling tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard


We couldn't all be cowboys
So some of us are clowns
Some of us are dancers on the midway
We roam from town to town
I hope that everybody can find a little flame
Me, I say my prayers, then I just light myself on fire
And I walk out on the wire once again

Letters from further away keep pulling me close to home
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for longer good-byes
Embracing for forever and falling in your eyes.

Pouring over photographs
I'm living in your letters
Breathe deeply from this envelope it smells like you and I can't be without that scent
It's filling me with all you mean to me

She looked just like a train wreck
That could've been avoided
In a third world country
By a long stretch of farmland
Where the waters had run high
And washed the topsoil down the river

Well it's life informing art informing life again
Like every stupid kid
That thinks that they're the first in pain
The first to rip themselves apart
The first to try and live without a heart

I miss you girl, I hope you're fine
Good luck, love
Or goodbye

I want to see your face, even hear your lies

you say....i only hear what i want to